An update

Dec. 18th, 2021 11:44 pm
popkin16: (oh. bitchcakes)
[personal profile] popkin16
I'm doing...ok. Work has been extremely overwhelming - they increased the number of grocery orders per day we can get (worst timing ever), and on top of that we have the expected online holiday craziness. Lots of new people, quite a few experienced coworkers on leave, and all combined it leaves me feeling exhausted and overwhelmed a lot. Two days off doesn't seem to be enough time to recover before I'm thrown back into things. I'm by turns exhausted and apathetic, and I keep forgetting things. Nothing too important (like meds or appointments, for example), just...little things. I've been setting a lot of reminders on my phone, and then forgetting to check my phone. Brain fog is the worst.

Hopefully things will settle after the New Year and I'll feel less like I'm treading water. We'll see.

I'm jumping between fandoms like I'm playing a game of hot potato. SGA, James Bond, Critical Role, Dresden Files, BFU. Right now I'm revisiting the Fullmetal Alchemist fandom, which is weird because I haven't watched the anime (either of them) in years. Then again, the last time I visited the Dresden Files fandom it was 2011, so...hm. Maybe it isn't so weird. I've also started reading Silmarillion fanfiction even though I've never read the book. A friend of mine told me about a ship of theirs from the book, and despite the many characters (why do they all have five names each??) and tragic events, I sought out fic and fell in love.

Buzzfeed Unsolved is officially done, but the boys have announced a ghost hunting show called Ghost Files on their own channel. My exhaustion/apathy means I'm behind on MANY of their stuff. I've also watched a few episodes of Only Murders in the Building and it's a perfect mix of comedy and mystery, and luckily I'm watching it with a friend - which means I'm actually going to finish it lol.

Literally nothing else of interest has happened ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Date: 2021-12-19 05:40 am (UTC)
From: [personal profile] timespirt
"HUGS"

The craziness will soon be over hon. Hang in here.

Date: 2021-12-19 07:34 am (UTC)
From: [personal profile] timespirt
As long as your not in the returns department after Christmas...all is good.

LOL

"HUGS"

Date: 2021-12-19 06:37 am (UTC)
esteefee: John Sheppard pursing his lips like youve just said a naughty word (ohnoyoudint)
From: [personal profile] esteefee
Only Murders is absolutely charming. I love grumpy Steve Martin. I esp love the burgeoning, untrusting friendship bw Charles and Mabel. I'm only on ep 5 but I'm utterly smitten. Is there a discord where we can chat?

Date: 2021-12-19 06:38 am (UTC)
esteefee: Ronon hugging John hugely. (hug)
From: [personal profile] esteefee
also wanted to say how sorry I am you are so stressed, bubbe. sending you pets and hugs.

Date: 2021-12-19 11:11 am (UTC)
juniperberry: AD/HD (Default)
From: [personal profile] juniperberry
:tight hugs:

I'm sorry, dear. My work is also skeletally staffed, and we're also struggling with coworkers who are out sick or who have quit.

FMA is such a weird fandom for me? Like I've read some fic for it that I really liked, and I loved the 03 anime (which is the only one I've seen), but I've only been fannish for it in short, unsustained bursts.

I'm glad you've got enough fandoms to play hot potato with, though!

Date: 2021-12-22 02:47 am (UTC)
juniperberry: the third doctor having tea and jo grant reading a newspaper (morning ritual)
From: [personal profile] juniperberry
Oh, yeah, I've been reading fic for Brotherhood, too--there's really no escaping it, even if I felt the need, so. I've been trying to rewatch it, too, but my attention span for TV of any kind has been shot this whole year. I managed to get through the first season of Killing Eve (very good, but dark) which deserves all the hype it has, but I haven't gotten through the rest of it even though I loved season 1.

I was sort of into Sherlock for a long while, actually! Not to the point of writing fic for it. I never saw past the second season, though, and from all accounts that was an excellent stopping point. The show wasn't actually all that good, but I can see why a fandom took off--it was absolute fangirl bait from the word go.

Anyway--ride that wave! Have fun with it!

Date: 2022-01-02 05:55 pm (UTC)
juniperberry: eve and villanelle meeting in killing eve (first meeting)
From: [personal profile] juniperberry
Yeah, Killing Eve is funny but it's also pretty dark, I don't recommend it if you're not in a good headspace for dark stuff.

Eh, on reflection Sherlock is fun, but it's not good. I think part of the appeal for a lot of fans is how very flawed and full of holes it is. (At least, up through season 2. Apparently after that the writing goes even further off the rails.) And yeah, sometimes stuff just doesn't click. I like Hannibal as a show, for example, but Hannigram doesn't grab me the way it apparently grabbed a lot of people--but then, I think I read it very differently from the majority of the fandom. Also I'm coming at it as an old CLAMP fan, so this is not my first innocent cinnamon roll/total monster ship. :D

Date: 2022-01-03 04:06 am (UTC)
juniperberry: rayk and his shadow (and my shadow)
From: [personal profile] juniperberry
No, I think that's entirely fair to avoid the fucked-up ships because the world is fucked-up. Escapism is a beautiful thing, and fandom can absolutely deliver that. *hugs*

As far as CLAMP, eh. I've read almost all their manga and honestly most of their ships aren't that fucked up--barring the ones from X, Tokyo Babylon, and RG Veda, most of their ships are sweetness and light, especially in comparison, lol. I just happened to fall for the Drama of the Seishirou/Subaru ship before the whole Rainbow Bridge chapter came out, and fans were still speculating that those two might have a remotely happy ending.

Look, mistakes were made, okay.

I don't really ship fucked up ships on the regular. I do like to see dark detours and AUs sometimes, but darkfic is not really the same thing. I'd say most of my ships are fairly non-fucked up, but with enough shadow that they could be really dark if you wanted to view them that way--even Doumeki/Watanuki. One thing that shows up later in the manga, once Watanuki is the shopkeeper, is the idea that one day Watanuki might become something so bad that Doumeki would have to exorcise him, and like. I don't really think CLAMP will follow up with that in a way I'd like, or at all, but that's such a dark, sad, fucked-up take on their relationship. I kind of want to write it since I know CLAMP never will.

Does any of that make sense? *sheepish grin*
Edited Date: 2022-01-03 04:12 am (UTC)

Date: 2022-02-19 08:01 am (UTC)
juniperberry: AD/HD (Default)
From: [personal profile] juniperberry
Sorry. no! I have some twitter accounts but I legit never use them, and it's gotten such a bad rep as a social media platform that I avoid it on principle at this point. And I've sort of poked at discord, but the format freaks me out tbh. I'm an old school sort, I guess.

I'm mostly on Dreamwidth and tumblr, when I'm on social media at all. I've got a FB account but at this point I'm mostly keeping it because that's where I talk with my friends who live in other states (and who are not old-school internet-savvy enough for sites like DW). FB creeps me out with all the spying and personalized ads, though, so I'm seriously considering shaving my accounts down to the bare bones there.

Date: 2022-02-22 09:43 pm (UTC)
juniperberry: fraser and ray vecchio trapped in a vault with the words "let me explain my brilliant plan!" written over them (brilliant plan)
From: [personal profile] juniperberry
Dreamwidth is so weird because it's so much smaller than LJ, so it can feel like nothing happens, but then something does happen, like the Snowflake Challenge, and before you know it you have like ten more people in your friends' circle. At least, uh, at least if you're me. <.<

Facebook used to be actually usable. And then it wasn't. :/ If it weren't for RL family and friends that I keep in contact with through it, I'd have chucked it years ago. As soon as I develop a better way of keeping in touch (which will likely mean a return to old-school shit like phone calls) I'm stuck with it.

I'm okay! I'm struggling to actually write ideas, but that's nothing new. How are you?

Date: 2022-03-01 10:53 pm (UTC)
juniperberry: fraser and kowalski ((life)partners)
From: [personal profile] juniperberry
Eh, that's fair. But honestly I think the DW space has become much more pluralized in terms of fandoms--I had people friending me that I have, maybe, one or two small fandoms in common. I think it's become much more about people who post stuff you like to read, rather than just fandom stuff, and in many ways that's both good and not so good. As for content--well, I mostly bitch about writer's block, but I've taken to liveblogging things, too. I'm typing up a liveblog of Star Trek: Deep Space Nine right now, because I have Netflix for the moment and I've always wanted to watch it.

The Snowflake Challenge really is a challenge! I petered out about halfway through, too. :)

Ugh, the dictator-wannabe really exposed a lot of very ugly things for a lot of people. I have an aunt that I unfriended on FB because she kept sharing a lot of racist dogwhistley things.

Oooh, which ship? 20 pages of decent quality is pretty nice--I know the CLAMP fandoms, uh, do not have that kind of quality, unfortunately. Maybe if they were all combined, but not individually.

And yes, you should write for you first and foremost, but it's a lot easier sometimes if you know you have someone who wants to read your stuff. I hear that.

Re: my writing--a pile of WIPs that are mostly due South, and mostly those two dorks in my icon. The rest of them are CLAMP stuffs--lots of TRC, bizarrely, and some xxxHolic (like that vampire!Watanuki fic I mentioned once before). I haven't been fanworky-fannish for very many things, and I'm a little astonished that due South has just dug into me the way it has, but....*shrug* I'm enjoying the ride, even if I struggle to actually get the stories done. And it is a pile! Here is a partial, now out-of-date list.

Date: 2022-03-02 03:05 am (UTC)
juniperberry: a young woman surfing on a library book truck (book surfing)
From: [personal profile] juniperberry
I'm liking it thus far! I was raised on Star Trek, but I've never felt fanworkly fannish about it, so if I don't come out of it with a fave that's fine. For me the fact that it's Star Trek is enough to make me give it a chance, and '90s Trek is like. Nostalgia comfort space.

Roy/Ed does have a lot of compelling and interesting fic. *nod nod*

Yeah, I think for CLAMP it's just the hurdle of their best stuff being manga, not anime. Anime is easy to sit and watch, but manga is hard to get ahold of (or it used to be) by comparison. I think the bar of accessibility is just a lot higher there.

Whoohoo! Have fun writing! I absolutely write the fics that I want to read, and then I get annoyed when that author hasn't updated in...waitaminute....

Thank you! Fun fact: that due South/Leverage crossover was dead in the water, and then Leverage: Redemption revealed that the entire team avoids Canada and they're all terrified of Mounties.

Date: 2021-12-19 02:07 pm (UTC)
squidgiepdx: (Letterkenny - Wayne)
From: [personal profile] squidgiepdx
I get you with fandom hopping right now. I've read nearly every fic on AO3 that's Nursey/Dex, so I've been reading The Losers right now. But Check, Please! is having a big bang soon so there will be new fic to read. I saw a post on Tumblr about a Ransom/Holster fic that got posted, so it might already be going.

And I'm really glad the boys are going to do a ghost hunting show on their own!! :)

> Literally nothing else of interest has happened ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

OMG same. When people at the store, etc ask politely, "So what're you doing this weekend?" I just look at them like, "What CAN we do that doesn't involve catching covid?!?!" ::sigh::

Date: 2021-12-19 02:42 pm (UTC)
melagan: Coffee cup with Atlantis in the rising steam (Default)
From: [personal profile] melagan
*smishes you*

When you feel up to chatting let me know, darlin'

Date: 2021-12-19 08:57 pm (UTC)
runpunkrun: chibi rodney mckay in a sleeping bag with chibi john sheppard kissing him on the head (mcshep is love also naps)
From: [personal profile] runpunkrun

Hang in there, buddy. <3 <3 <3

Date: 2021-12-24 07:47 pm (UTC)
logicgunn: (Default)
From: [personal profile] logicgunn
I'm sorry you are so stressed! Brain fog really is the worst.

I wish for a completely uneventful January for you so you can chill. xx

nihilvanum's words:

my dear
the problem is that
you love him so much
you would allow him
to drag you all the way to hell
if it meant you could
hold his hand
on the way down

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