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[popkin16]

Now that I have a day off with nothing planned, I can finally post.

Merry (belated) Christmas to everyone! Thank you for the holiday cards, I really appreciate them. They lifted my spirits after dragging myself home from work every day. I have them up on my bookshelf, and no I will not be taking them down any time soon.

The SGA Secret Santa 2020 is complete! Check out the fics here :) I want to thank everyone who participated, offered help, or listened to me when I talked about it lol. This crappy year has really encouraged me to reflect on what brings me joy and peace of mind, and it is in big part the McShep fandom. I've mostly been lurking this year, and I apologize for that, but know that I'm here and I love you all.

I've also been dealing with my BFU hyperfixation. I've been watching the videos in the Shyan Moments playlist and hanging out in the shipping server. It's fun and pressure free. Everyone's enthusiastic and encouraging and super friendly <3

I had a good Christmas. I received only gift cards but that's what I wanted, because when I try to explain what I want I mostly get confused looks. It's easier to just buy for myself lol. Also then nobody will judge me for my book purchases s;jfa;

I've been taking the Ashwagandha supplements based on my co-workers recommendation, and they've been working for me. I haven't had a really bad mental health day since I started taking them. I admit I was getting worried about myself - not because of self-harm thoughts or anything, but because I've never had days like that, where my head felt stuffed full of cotton and my body felt heavy. My brain is still not great, but at least I haven't had a day like that.

I'm really hoping 2021 turns out better. My New Year's resolution is going to be the same as it was the past year: to be kinder to myself. That can mean many things; not to beat myself up over stupid things, or pressure myself. To find joy where I can. I'm working on the negative self-talk too. We'll see how it goes~

Comments

[squidgiepdx]

And I keep getting closer and closer to falling into that BFU/Watcher hole...

Here's to an amazing new year!

[popkin16]

I admit, at this point I'm trying to drag you in, even if it's kicking and screaming LOL. I need someone I can link fic to and then flail about~

Of course, you've also managed to drag me into Check Please...I still think about Dex and Nursey often.

[moth2fic]

It was lovely to be involved with the Secret Santa again! Thank you for organising it, and I must say your head can't have too much cotton wool in it if you can herd cats like that!! I'm more than half way through all the lovely stories, and that's been a real pleasure since they started appearing.

Definitely be kind to yourself in 2021!

[popkin16]

I was so happy when you signed up <3 Luckily, these cats were pretty well-behaved, as far as cats go, lol. Everyone responded to my emails promptly, and I used a spreadsheet to keep track of who checked in, who had completed their fic, and who had posted.

I have tomorrow off and I'm hoping to find the time and energy to go through and read them all, and comment.

Definitely be kind to yourself in 2021!
I'm going to do my best!!

[timespirt]

"HUGS"

Let's hope 2021 is a better year for all of us. I hope you are doing OK hon. Merry Christmas and I hope you have a Happy New Year as well.

[popkin16]

*HUGS*

We could do with a year that goes well after the last four...

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year, bb <3

[timespirt]

"HUGS"

Stay well and try to stay sane in this weird sci-if like world we are living in. LOL

[popkin16]

you too bb ♥!

[unrelaxing]

Merry Christmas Pop!!! So happy to have you in the BFU hyperfixation train with me, genuinely. Excited for 2021 in BFU fandom with you!!

[popkin16]

Meeting you has been one of the best things to come out of my new hyperfixation ♥ I look forward to fangirling in 2021 with you, too :)

[ride_4ever]

What an excellent New Year's Resolution! Be kinder to yourself indeed!

[popkin16]

It's not easy, but it's important!

[em_kellesvig]

Happy Holidays, my Popkin! Glad your brain is better. Sad brains are sad. (I'll show myself out.) :D

[popkin16]

Happy holidays ♥ I hope you had a good one!

Sad brains are sad. (I'll show myself out.) :D
Lolllllll. Thanks for the laugh XD

[juniperberry]

*tight hugs* I feel you on needing to practice more self-kindness, and I'm glad you've got a day off at last. My own mental health has been, uh. Not great, so I hear that loud and clear.

Also yay for fandom fests!

*moar tight hugs*

[popkin16]

I'm sorry you've been having some mental health badness as well *hugs back* I hope things improve from here for both of us.

Fandom is what's gotten me through this year <3

[logicgunn]

I hope 2021 is kinder to you, especially mental health wise.

It's been great reading the influx of the SGU SS fics, so thank you for organising that.

When you start the negative self-talk, maybe we'll all have to poke you with a stick and remind you to be as nice to yourself as we all would be. :) xxx

[popkin16]

God, I hope so too. If things get worse - well. I'm really worried.

You're welcome! I love that this fandom is still kicking after so long. And I'm so pleased I can have a hand in that, even in some small way.

When you start the negative self-talk, maybe we'll all have to poke you with a stick and remind you to be as nice to yourself as we all would be. :) xxx
That's a great idea! Except I worry about posting when I'm dealing with the negative self-talk, because I don't want to bring anyone down as;kjda; It's a vicious circle lol.